Sunday, 27 January 2013

Beautiful Cherry2


Greg left for the city immediately after the burial wished his girls luck and God’s blessings, to check on hs new job. On his way there while in the bus he reflected n their beautiful and short life with mama.
As he perused the bag he found mama’s letter that was stll not opened, ………………………..
He reported to work and was surprised by the warm welcome rom hs new boss who mentioned their concern and condolences on the behalf of the company.”I know you are surprised the lady was an icon in her own rights’ there so much you will learn about her” He said
“meanwhile, feel at home. See the lady at the reception 4 she hasa message for you
Greg smiled at the lady as he approached her. “Am Greg”
“Welcome Greg” Am Lydia
“Thanks Lydia” am humbled
“My condolences” “Have a seat” she added
“Thank You” He said
She asked about the funeral he updated her on all what was done. Although Greg was not comfortable getting to work immediately, his girls needed food on the table, hence the need to work. And Lydia too was concerned. “Greg, do you feel comfortable coming back to work so fast?, atleast you needed sometime off to moan”
“Lydia, I don’t like it too but my girls will go hungry” he responded
“Greg, we understand what you feel. We have resolved that you will resume now till you are all settled” she quipped “follow me” she added
(both standing)
“This is awesome Lydia, atleast I will have time to relocate my girls” he said as he followed
They went to a well manicured compound surrounding a massionate. Lydia opened the first door “Welcome”
“Oh this is so beautiful, it must be a very expensive house” Greg quipped
it is and it has been vacant for a decade now. The owner made sure it was well kept until the day the heir comes. Its well furnished. Do you like it?” Lydia asked
“its everyone’s dream to live in such a house. I will not rest until I get a small cute haven almost like this one for my girls” Greg said
“This house belongs to you and your girls Greg” We are so happy to see you home. “Greg you are so into your girls, don’t you have a life other than them?” Lydia asked
“What do you mean this house is mine?” he thought aloud
This is just the beginning Greg, more surprises will come. Others will leave you in shock for months, others will fill your life with gladness” Please take it all in. she pleaded
“I seem not to be getting it though. Am just a pauper I have been struggling all my life. Struggle is all I know. Am sorry I don’t understand this” He said
“I feel you Greg. Life is not all about struggling. There is a bright side in the struggle, it keeps you focused and great things come to you” “this is just one of them” she explained
As they strolled the house, Lydia showed him each of the rooms but the master bedroom. “This is will be a surprise to you and Stacy” we will open once she arrives. She is on her way here” she said
“Lydia, she is on her way here?”He asked “but my girls are all home with Tabitha and ….” He added
“They will all be here in the next twenty minutes” Lydia interrupted “I told you more is coming, you better relax” she added
As they strolled the house he heard a hoot, the gateman opened the gate. He peeped through the window, saw a limo. His girls and Tabitha alighted. He ran outside to them and hugged them really tight.
“Baby girls am so happy to see you” he said
“They updated each other on what had happened since he left.
“Hey guys, come all in” Lydia shouted
As they followed her, Greg kissed his little girl telling her how beautiful her room is. She was young but she would tell the difference. Stacey was shown round as Greg stayed on with her in her room.
 He saw her little one resembled the mom. He thought about them every day and he was glad they will not have to be apart again.
He was lost in his thoughts especially loosing Mrs. Raphael who was like a mother to them. There were so many unexplained things.
Once Lydia was done showing her round, He called Greg in to show them their little paradise. The décor was great, a mixture of both white and Deep red beddings. The closet was has shades of blue and white. The dressing room had ample space so serene and appealing. Lydia loved it, she couldn’t hold back her tears.

Beautiful Cherry


Cherry was the first born girl in Greg’s family, born 1952 when Kenyans were already mobilizing themselves for a show down with the colonialists. Around the same time when there was a State of Emergency.

She came at a time when funds were low, mom Stacey was a stay at home mom. Greg, her dad struggled with manual work; masonry, gardener, landscaping anything that would feed his young family.

 Greg grew up without a father figure as his dad, Mr. Wanyoike died in exile He was already on the wanted list by the white settlers for being among the leaders of a rebel group.

Greg and his new family lived in an old wooden structure that was given to them by his classmate, which at the time was a store until they moved in.

Stacey was a high school dropout his family would not afford to keep her in school for luck of school fees. Greg was a graduate and had promised Stacey “Honey, one day you will complete your high school and also attain a Heart surgeon title”. 

Stacey’s dream was to become a heart surgeon, her brother David had succumbed to a heart problem, they could not access the medical attention required, it was preserved for the elite and white. and she had vowed to study and help those in need of a heart surgeon with no finances.

Greg had promised Stacey’s parents to take care of their daughter and that he would ensure she was at all times at peace. 

The Stephen’s family blessed the couple and off was Stacey to Greg’s arms. Cherry was a little chubby beautiful girl. Stacey ensured she was well feed, clean and warm. 

A neighbor’s wife, Mrs. Raphael came every morning to clean Cherry’s soiled clothes and cook for the Greg’s. She was a blessing to them.

She would bring with her a jar of milk, make tea and pour it in a flask, to ensure Stacey was well feed and warm for the baby. Greg would have a cup every evening. Mrs. Raphael was a fairly aged lady, she was 65 years.

 Her husband was a son of one of Kenya's colonizers  Mr. Clifford James who had passed on the same year the Greg’s moved to the neighborhood, 
in fact Stacey stayed on with her to the day of the burial. This friendship grew from this time on. Mrs. Raphael enjoyed a better life owing to her husband's background.

Her three children were all overseas and in a sad face teary eyes she would often tell Stacey, “You are my only child, they all left.”

Greg would every evening check on Mrs. Raphael and thank her for her assistance to his two girls.
She continued to help the Greg’s and this brought them closer.

When Cherry was nine months, she brought her a small gift and requested the Greg’s not to open it till when she was eighteen. She gave them an address to her bank where they would keep it safe. Greg was hesitant with the idea. 
“What if by bad luck, she doesn't get to see her eighteenth birthday?”

Mrs. Raphael answered “The LORD will keep her safe, HE will sustain her” she added, “Cherry will be a great woman, the whole world will seek her wisdom”. This brought tears to Stacey’s eyes.

As she hugged her, she whispered, “Thank you Mum, God Bless You”.

“Amen my daughter, you have a bright future. Never give up, keep your hope alive and remember God brought you to this world for a purpose.” She responded.

Greg had good news for the ladies, “I have found a new job in the city, I will be leaving on Monday (it was on a Friday), to fill the employment form and get a better house for you ladies and Cherry”.

Stacey replied, “That is so fast Honey”.

Greg assured her it was all for their own good. “Honey, you will like it there.”
Mrs. Raphael intercepted, “Stacey, listen to your husband. This will be a new life for the two of you and Cherry.”

Securing a job in the city was everyone's dream, especially those living at the village. It was an opportunity to explore one's country, more so, one would get first hand information about the government. 

Mrs. Raphael faced Greg, “I will not join you, and this is where I call home. My health is failing; let me enjoy my final days here.”

“We can’t leave you behind, Mrs. Raphael; you have been a blessing to us”. Greg said
“Listen children; I was married in this neighborhood forty years back. I raised my three children in here and all left. My husband was my only companion until he passed on. You came at a time when I was desolate, and lonely.

” She added, “Greg, just let me be. The doctors gave me six months to live, Cherry’s smile and love have kept me going.” 

She continued, “I feel very weak now. I will join my husband soon.”

Mrs. Raphael created a sad atmosphere and she encouraged them, “Do not be sad, this life is so uncertain only death is certain. Take this note book Greg (he did), it contains my children’s contacts”.


Greg said, “Sincerely am not comfortable with the whole issue.”

Mrs. Raphael replied, “We have been made to fear death and it’s unavoidable. Take heart Greg, you too will take the baton, one day.”

Greg asked, “How long have you been on Chemo?” Due to her connections she received her treatement in the hospitals.

Mrs. Raphael answered, “For the last eighteen months. It was detected at stage three. My husband also succumbed to it.”

Greg was empathetic, “Sorry about that. Are you taking any drugs now?”

“yes.” She answered

Stacey said, “Mrs. Raphael you are a God sent angel in time of disguise. Thanks so much for being there for each one of us.”

“Anytime, my daughter. You are most welcome.” Mrs. Raphael replied

“I have to leave now. Goodnight Greg’s. See you tomorrow.” She added

Greg helped her stand and escorted her to her house as Stacey and Cherry silently followed on. Once they to her door, 

Greg opened and helped her rest on her comfortable beautiful bed. They all hugged her goodnight. As they left she told them, “When am gone, this bed is a precious gift to you two.”

“Thank you mum, you won’t be leaving us any time soon. Rest, see you tomorrow.” Stacey said as they closed the door behind them.

“Am so disturbed, Mr. Raphael’s death really affected her. I think one of her children should have remained behind.” Stacey said

“I will try and get to talk to one of them tonight.” Greg replied

They got into their house, and Grey got the small note book. 

To his surprise, it was a small St. James bible. “Honey,” he called out

“Yes, Love, am coming.” Stacey replied as she laid Cherry on her bed.

“Honey, it wasn’t a contact notebook, it’s a bible.” Greg informed her

“She can really be an encoded persona.” Stacey thought aloud

“I don’t remember seeing any of her children at the burial of her husband.” Greg said

“The MC said they would come later to be with the mom.” Stacey reminded him
“and they have never appeared” Greg noticed.

“I think Mrs. Raphael is hiding something from us.” He added

“I will try and get more information from her tomorrow.” She said
“you need to.” Greg affirmed

“There is hot chocolate in the flask. Will you have it?”. Stacey asked

“yes please. Thank you love.” Greg was grateful

Stacey came back with two cups filled with hot chocolate and gave one to Greg . “Thanks.” He said

“Most welcome my love. How was your day?.” She asked

“I love the taste of lemon in it, its so relaxing.” he said.

“My day was so glad. Am happy I will now afford a decent life for my girls.” He added.

“Congratulations, am so happy for you honey, you have done enough to your muscles. You have my blessings” She congratulated him

“I will leave you and Cherry for a while. I need to get a house for you, a better one at that.” Greg said,
“It won’t be for long.” He added

“At least it will give us time to be with Mrs. Raphael.” Stacey said

“Has Tabitha (Mrs. Raphael’s house help) ever told you anything weird about her?” Greg asked

“No. they are not very close although she has worked for the last ten years in her house. Mrs. Raphael can really be secretive.” Stacey answered

“Get as much information as you can tomorrow.” Greg said

“I will.” She said

“I have enjoyed the hot chocolate, a perfect choice the cold weather.” Greg said as he got closer to her and kissed her passionately. His hands were all over her and she reciprocated. That night for the first time, they made love on their old rugged couch.

“I love you.” Greg whispered

“I love you more” she whispered back.

Greg went to check on his Cherry, covered her well and kissed her forehead. “Honey am turning off the lights get to bed” He said

“go ahead love, am heading there.” She replied

Greg turned off the lights and kissed Stacey goodnight. Stacey did a prayer

The following morning, Greg was the first one to wake up. As he was preparing breakfast for his girls, he heard a knock at the door.

He went to answer. “Good Morning Greg, I brought the milk. Mrs Raphael has requested me to.” Tabitha said

“How is she fairing?” he asked

“She isn't feeling well. I have not seen her like that.” Tabitha replied

“What’s her condition?” Greg asked

“She called me and requested me to bring the milk. I went back to ask whether she had any information for you or Stacey, she didn’t talk. She hasn’t said a word since. All she does is nod.” Tabitha replied

“Thank you Tabitha. We will come to check on her.” Greg said

“In a few minutes we will be there.” He assured her

Immediately he woke his wife up, “Morning honey.” He greeted her

“Honey morning. What’s up today? You rarely wake us up this early” Stacey said half asleep

“Have a seat my love.” Greg said

“We had a storm last night.”  Stacey said

“yes we did. Have your breakfast sugar, you have a long day today” he said

Stacey was swallowed by the couch as she had her breakfast.

“Of course.”Stacey replied. “I can see Mrs. Raphael had already brought the milk. Honey you would have woken me up” she added

“How is she today?” she asked

“Tabitha brought the milk,she says Mrs. Raphael is unwell. Not speaking, she needs medical attention.” Greg replied

“Let me dress up, am gonna go check on her.” Stacey said

“have you taken all your breakfast?” Greg asked

“yes, thanks love” she replied

“Check on Cherry” she said as hurriedly left for Mrs. Raphael’s house

She found Tabitha trying to carry her out to a waiting ambulance. “She is worse, I have contacted her doctor and she has requested me to take her to the clinic.” Tabitha said

“Lets go” Stacey replied as they both carried her to the ambulance

The nurse at the ambulance placed the oxygen mask on her face as she listened to her pulse rate. “ her heart isn't stable” she said

“I smell danger, we are 100 meters away, kindly tell the cardiologist its an emergency.” She said on the car radio

Stacey lost her breath for a moment. Tabitha sat silent and scared(in deep thoughts)

On reaching the clinic compound, they found a team waiting for them ready to receive a great friend to the hospital, Mrs. Raphael. She was wheeled out of the ambulance. The Cardiologist tried to electric shock her heart to no avail. He left the room without a word. All other nurses also left one by one without a word until Stacey stopped one, “What’s happening?”she asked

“We have lost her.” She replied as she headed to the ward.

Stacey tried to shake her, call out her name, ”Mum, Mum, Mum, you just can’t leave us.”, “We have lots of unfinished business.”

Tabitha hugged her and whispered in her ear, “She is home. Let her rest”.

Stacey couldn't say a word, she really cried remembering the conversation they had yester night. A nurse approached them, “Sorry ladies. Am nurse George. I would like to place Mrs. Raphael’s body in our funeral home.”

 “Are you her family? He asked.” Please sign for me this forms. He added

“Stacey sign the papers.” Tabitha said

“Actually we are not her family but we have lived with her for the last ten years and never seen a sister or an in-law come to visit her.: Tabitha added

“Family: are the people who love and care about you.” George said

As Stacey signed the papers, Tabitha was asking George what might have caused her death. “She might have had a heart attack.” He said

“would you love a postmortem done?”he asked

“It’s not necessary.” Stacey replied

“Would you know when you would be laying her body to rest?” George asked

“In about a week” Stacey replied

“Ladies you don’t have to worry about the home fees, she had paid in advance.” George told the ladies

“She told me last night that the only thing we are certain about in this life is death. She was damn true.” Stacey informed them

“Prepare for it too ladies. You don’t want to leave your loved ones with a burden.” George said

“Kindly provide us with the hospital contacts, we will call and inform you about the D.day” Stacey requested

“take this” George said as he handed over to her a business card

“Good bye George, we will keep in touch.” Stacey said as they stood to leave
“I wish you well” George replied

They both left. They talked about Mrs. Raphael. Her love for people. her love for the LORD. 
They both agreed they had lost a heroine, a mentor, a best friend. “Mrs. Raphael mentioned about her children in the overseas, has she ever told you about the same?’ Stacey asked

“Yes she often told me about the same, although I have never heard even a phone call from them.” Tabitha replied

“Her husband was eager about to tell me about them but something would always come and we would postpone. He passed on without telling me.” Tabitha added

Stacey narrated to her what had transpired the previous night in her house, the notebook only to find out later after she had left that it was a bible. They both agreed it was an uphill task to even get the contacts for the children. 

They met a crowd at Mrs. Raphael’s compound. Stacey would hear them say, “we have lost a friend.” Others were saying “we will miss her.”,

An elderly lady approached them and as she hugged them she comforted them saying, “we are sorry ladies”

Tabitha replied, “thank you Mrs. Eric”, “we need to lay her to rest” she added

“Tabitha, we buried his husband without informing any family member as she requested. Would you have any information about them?” Mrs. Eric asked

“none” she replied

“Mrs. Raphael was so secretive, no one knows about her background, not even her closest friends” Mrs. Eric pointed out

“Their family lawyer will be present at the burial, we might uncover the ravel”, Tabitha said
“Tabitha be in charge, am going to check on my Cherry” Stacey said as she left for her house


A committee to foresee the preparations for the burial was formed, Mrs. Eric was appointed the spokeswoman. The Burial Date was set. The family was really an issue but they resolved to wait for the family lawyer whom they believed had concrete information about the family. 

The committee was informed that Mrs. Raphael had paid all fees including having chosen the clothing her body would be(placed in).

Greg was appointed o talk on behalf of the family. They requested Tabitha to stay on for a few months as they get a care taker for the home. Tabitha agreed.
On Sunday night, a day before the burial, something happened that would be in the mind of the friends and neighbors’ who had gathered in the compound. The episode would later(after ten years) repeat in Greg’s and Stacey’s bedroom.

The vehicles were waiting in the compound to ferry the friends to the Funeral home finally lay Mrs. Raphael’s body. A black Range Rover car appeared and drove into the compound. A tall dark haired gentleman alighted and for a while stole the moment.

He gestured for people to gather and listen to him. Many thought he must be one of the children that Mrs.Raphael fondly talked about.

“Good morning ladies and gentlemen” He started

“Am Mrs. Raphael’s lawyer and you can refer to me as Brown” he introduced himself
“We are gathered here as friends, neighbors, spectators, family to bid our dear mama goodbye.” He added

“I have lots of information about this family and I will let you know when we have laid mama’s body in the right place” He continued

“I don’t know what you had decided about Mama’s Body, Her request was to have it cremated and the ashes put in the earn. Greg and Stacey will keep them”. He said

There was murmuring in the crowd..

“More will astonish you, please stay calm” he said

“Please get into the vehicles, we will have a short Mass at the home as mama had requested and after the cremation will be done,” he added

“We will have a short briefing later” He informed them

“Let’s Go” he said as he got into his range leading them

In low tones, people consulted about mama’s decision to have her ashes in Greg’s family. They were aware of mama’s love for Stacey,but what beat them that. “why them and not Tabitha whom she has been with for most of her life” one asked

Another asked, “would it possible that there are family tires between her and Greg?”

Another Rhetoric question, “Would Stacey be mama’s daughter?”

Tabitha sat silently behind and no one had noticed her until she replied, “Stacey isn't mama’s daughter neither is Greg.” They are both very new in this neighborhood.
 In fact it was mama who oriented them” she added

The passengers got silent as they approached the funeral home.
Brown was the first to alight; he marched inside the building and came out only to find the crowd waiting for a word from him. He removed a paper from a file in his hand,

“Please listen keenly to the following names, they will witness the cremation as mama had requested..”

“Mr. and Mrs. Erica, Greg and Stacey, Tabitha”

As the five took to the front, the murmuring was even louder
“Please be patient. It won’t be long” He assured them

The five followed him inside the home. He got to one of the offices and they followed.
“Ladies and gentlemen, am happy to meet you,” he started

“Mama did love the five of you so much that anytime she mentioned any of your names to me, she would water her eyes.

“I have got personal letters for each one of you from Mama”(he said as he opened the brief case to handover to them, “open them once home after the function” he added
………………

to be continued

Thursday, 24 January 2013

A Positive Energy

I have changed the heading of my blog from 'Forgiveness isnt easy to Forgiveness is easy'. Am thinking positive. Its a road less travelled but it is worth it. I will ofcos tend to focus on the good, it always bribgs back more greatness.

Thinking as a happy person whom is enjoying a marriage definitely resonates on your enviroment hence their will be lots of energy within your home.

Making that important change should be a priority if you want things to calm down. although am not there yet, All will definitely turn out well. If forgiveness is an issue now, tackle it well and soberly. Yes no matter the pain, you can still can forgive.

Harmony at our homes is very essential, it zeros down to our places of work and our children at school. Learn from every disagreement and let it be an opportunity for growth.

Monday, 21 January 2013

It's always humbling to know how much your spouse is ready to go to make the relationship work. Marriage is a sacred relationship where only the wise survive.It takes courage to compromise for the other party. It takes lots of consideration to sacrifice own for the sake of your partners happiness.

I admit i can be obsessive when it comes to love. I only want a few things to remain seclusive,special for me. although my gut seldom fails me, it occasionally does. My past experience really does haunt me.

I need a stable ground, i need to believe in myself. I need to open my mind just a little, i need to say NO negative thoughts. They really cause me sleepless nights.  i get so insecure about th minor things that i almost give up on building my trust.

I sure am in dire need of trust, wish it was bankable..where you just withdraw and pap you are sorted. The fact that my hubby reminded me we need to fight for our love was just a reminder of how special we are. We have come from far to just let it flow down stream.

We have been through so much, it has molded us to be stronger and weather any storm. Every passing day is a lesson learnt. Every positive day, with a pint of a positive thought leads to a future of quantum leaps. 

Life doesn't promise a fun filled future but strive to enjoy the moment-now. Much patience is required.

Friday, 18 January 2013

This Day, Its No different

This journey of forgiveness has its own ups and downs. At times you are in or out. You are on a roller coaster of happiness till your spouse does something that takes you back.
I do feel cheated, am not sure anymore about him. Am suspicious about something and it aint good report. 

i will not pen it down, till i confirm my fears. Trust once broken is so hard to rebuild  Am at that state of my life where i feel i need to move on. 
The worst thing you can do to a person who is recuperating from a relationship is abusing them emotionally.

You should never take them for granted. They are fragile and need attention. i feel i don't get much of that and my spouse shouldn't be surprised if i walking away. People get tired and can only take so much.He shouldn't be worried i didn't keep my word, he lead me to it anyway.

Things may not working for right now, am not happy with our relationship, things dont have to remain this way forever. Although successful relationships require hard work  if its a one lane highway then it will for sure lead to nowhere.

My spouse has lately been telling me, i think so negative about him but you see being positive on an environment that is negative can be difficult. It does change my whole perspective of our own relationship

Thursday, 17 January 2013

Am so worn out, am not happy.

I wish i would say something good about me,
better about us.
We sure do not have a connection
We may have created so much together, but nothing seems to bring us together
All my life i have been trying to validate myself to you
Am constantly on the weighing scale,
I tend to be walking on egg shells all the time
Am a sweetheart at home, and a stranger in your outside world
Of cos it does hurt, and you never understand, never will.
I  know you take me a stupid fool, and its OK, may be i give you a reason to.
I feel so unappreciated but its OK, my best isn't enough to please thee
Your constant audience to other women just says how lowly you take me for
   No complains though
If you truly loved me, you would compromise for the sake of our happiness
i thought that what happy couples do? anyway ..
You take me for granted because am not your style, i know am not the kind of gal you wanted to end up with, if i remember so well i introduced myself to your parents.
Babie something always comes up, when we no I arrange for a date
and i understand, you are not comfortable in my company.
I cant force you to truly love me,
I cant always be validating myself to you, its OK if you don't get my worth, may be you don't see it and i don't blame you.
I will for sure do something for myself,
I will let myself be an in inspiration to myself, i have been through much
I have stretched so much to accommodate you,
You just don't fit, no matter my flexibility
I can adjust to whatever to make our relationship work
but i feel like am doing so much for nothing
The results are the same anyway,
am on the verge of tearing up in pieces, and i think i need to stop, i have come to accept , i cant please you
i feel like am your ''doormat', the one that get all the dirt after you had your fun,
am of no good
God bless you and may HE give you a longlife
Despite all, I will always love you
I rest my case..



Tuesday, 1 January 2013

A New Dawn

2012 a year that was, a year i will live to remember
I unearthed so much, i thought i couldn't handle
I for sure was living in denial for so long, i finally set to reality
I have been heartbroken big time
It was an year i never expected, so i thought
Things got ugly and difficult
The hurt, pain was so much to bear
Until i got to know the strength i ooze from inside
Calamities awake sleeping power
Every passing day has been an inspiration, It has taught me patience, long suffering and the value of forgiveness.
Its the same year i was blessed with another little angel, he has been the rock of my healing. Just as he grows, my heart shows acceptance, joy after sorrow
Am  not afraid of the unknown anymore, i think that experience was an eye opener, i can manage anything that comes my way.
I appreciate the little things we believe are normal,

  • breath of life
  • Great friends
  • A good job
  • A shelter
  • Warm clothing
  • Lovely children
  • Caring siblings
  • A spouse
  • Food on the table
  • fresh air

Am glad, am privileged enough to usher in the new year, i got a feeling this will be a huge year for me, i can feel i will go to greater and bigger heights.
Welcome 2013, we can do this together