Live Again

A day older, a happier day
Marriage can be beautiful, it can also be a source of agony,
where communication has failed, separation beckons
Arguing is a good sign, there is a room for improvement, both parties are determined to give it the best shot. Otherwise one of the parties has given up and has his attention else where
Every problem has a solution
Every marriage can work despite hurdles
Every ailing  relationship can be healed
After a betrayal you still can trust again
There is power in self confidence
There is joy in forgiveness, If things don't happen as expected, your creativity is re-energized. What may be happening to you now isn't new, it has happened to someone else before you.
If you are committed to change, you will achieve greats,
Commit yourself to changing a dull relationship,Change your attitude toward the person who have hurt you, Love them more.
You need to change your thinking too about a particular situation or person, get to know how they feel
Be the first to adjust, be the first to let the guard down, be the first to say apologize  be the first to compromise, the other party will too will follow suit, after all its for the benefit of the two parties.
Betrayal reveals who you really are, it tells the world the person within.,
You are strong to calm any storm that comes your way
Its never too late to start again, pack everything up and chase your dream
Pack all hurt toss it and hope again, start from scratch, you will get somewhere someday, you will live to tell the story.
You too can change your opinion, you can change your stand.
Happiness is about compromise

My Birthday, A new beggining

My hubby was the first to wish me a happy birthday..exactly at 00:01 am.
The hug felt warm and very lovely..its been long since i saw him so happy, the smile he wore was so lovely, his face was glowing i could tell he was about to say something.
He first gave me a beautiful necklace and i was so elated and when i thought he was done he told me he got another surprise,,wow..
He removed a ring from his pocket, i could see he was withholding some info i know he wanted to propose but was afraid i would turn him down and he did confirm my fears the following day!
i feel him, what he doesn't know is that i have decided to stay put no matter what.
He is a cool gentle guy and also tough
He told me we need to start all over again, a good idea
a great sign that he still feel we can make a good couple
It feels loved to know he believes in me
We are good together, we feel each other, we compliment each other
May be one day i will walk down the aisle to meet him and vow to stay by his side always
I think it will be a beautiful day,
till then i will work to be the best person i can be
A good wife, a great mum, sis, friend and daughter
I dont wanna live to wish i did
I love my hubby, thanks love for the ring, thanks for believing in me, thanks for all
I want to pen down the big changes and influence i did after one year down the line
I want to look at family and thank myself for unselfishness
kisses

MY two little angels

My babies keep me going,
They are my energy boosters, when am down they give me a reason to smile
They know mum knows best and i do
It really does feel great to nurture an innocent soul, you want to do your best, you wanna give the best.
I will stand firm to bring up responsible adults
My babies are my new love, Am all butterflies, the innocent smile make me weak in my knees,
They are the best gifts that our dear God has entrusted me with for the past four years.
What a beauty to see my heart literally walking beside me
I tear as i write this, they give me genuine love
They are so fresh, so pure you are afraid the filthy world
Having both in my arms is the best feeling ever, greatest experience one can ever imagine
I pray that they will forever remain close and they will make smart choices
I wonder what i will do when one of them comes home with a broken heart
I want to be with them every step of their lives
I want them to know mum passed through the same experiences and she got stronger
bless you my son
bless you my daughter

The Better Me,

Am looking forward to the lunch date with my hubby.

You see at the end of the day, i remain with me and God above

He constantly talks about forgiveness, 

I too need forgiveness now and then

I have wronged people

May be i have lost friends cos i didn't say sorry

I want a better life, and that comes accepting the life mishaps along the way

Someone said "Everything happens for a reason"

This has changed me loads,

Am a better listener, more patient

I think i can put up with anything now

Even when things are bad, i wanna strive to be positive

I cant wait to see what future holds
I have got loads of energy, i wanna do anything and everything to ensure our relationship works no matter what.
I want a brighter and fuller experience,
we will do dates often, we will have our time together often.
We will have family time too, am looking forward to the next lunch date

be a fighter

Once i decided to forgive, am now finding it easier to cope with anything that comes my way. keeping a grudge  hurt people, it robs one all the happiness and joy. It brings along resentments that only cause more havoc to the soul and the body. Have you realized how one gets sick when unhappy?

Let go all the heartaches,

Let go all the pain,

Let go all the sorrow,

Let it flow, restart afresh, make new friends

Indulge in a hobby that you have not been keen on in the past

Make friends with your past

Enjoy the new company you've got,
don't hate those who hurt you, love them anyway
Do good to them
Wish them well

You will be doing just to yourself

You can forgive and still move on

You can forgive and still love again

otherwise who would want to love someone with a baggage.

Forgiveness can also be patience, 

Patience to let anger subside

Patience to let yourself mourn

You don't have to tolerate those who hurt you

You still can let them go

Strive to be a fighter, Never give up on yourself

I Choose to Forgive

I have developed a new passion lately and am rocking it. it has kinda owned all my attention and am loving it. I don't have to rely much on the hurt,
I get creative everyday, when it gets messy its usually a lesson learnt never a mistake. The people around me i sense they are loving it too albeit criticism here and there. The new love is cooking specifically baking.
Baking is my new relationship, we do get adventurousness all the time. Nothing we do is a repetition.
Am happy with the new me, i found something that i love and will never get a heartbreak!
Without a doubt i will pour out my heart here, its my rebound. A great way to relieve all my pressures and pain.
Everyday a new item is added to the list. My hands are so full, i always get something to do. My first baby is at home on holiday, great treat for the family, we can all indulge in my new hobby.
Two wrongs don't make a right, i don't wanna pump in more hurt to a hurting situation,
i don't wanna pump in more anger to an ugly situation
I want to drive the hate with love
I want to take un forgiveness home, i will continue to search for joy and happiness
I want to be a cheer leader, I want to experience hope again
Only light can drive out darkness, i will strive to give life to our marriage. I know my hubby still feels i got so much to get over with but one of these days he will uncover a new me.
I will not let the past steal my joy of today, i will never understand, i will never forget, i wouldn't have controlled the situation then, but i can choose to take control of my feelings now. I will tell a friend of my experience and may be it will be an encouragement.
Mahatma Gandhi once said "The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong" 
That was so strong and powerful.
A journey of forgiveness isn't easy it is a lifetime course. At times the hurt will show up, you will never forget  it will be with you all your days to your grave. Forgotten may be forgiven.
I feel like am gaining power, am working out the old scales just like an eagle, after all this is all done and gone, i will fly higher and higher.
Patience will heal wounds, Forgiveness calms storms.
You will know that forgiveness has begun when you recall those who hurt you and feel the power to wish them well. Lewis B. Smedes
I choose to  forgive.

Do it Differently

I have made up my mind,
No more bricks will be placed on the wall that is already existing between us
The hard work ahead is to bring the wall down, brick by brick
It isn't easy, since we have made our minds to,  we will manage
This morning we had a disagreement about an issue that would have been dwelt with last night, He was so angry about it that it had to zero down to the kids.
My daughter cried when his daddy denied him permission to go to a function she had prepared for.
This really broke my heart, i cried too
I felt we should have dwelt on getting a solution,
but out of anger, he listened to his head not his heart
Every little thing under the universe comes with sacrifice
Am ready to take the moon, I will get to the sun and back, until things go well
There will be:
No more hard feelings,
No more sleepless nights, am gonna stay up till my heart is at peace
Am gonna stay up till we are both on the same page
I will not let him lay angry
I ill not let him lay unhappy
He isn't a good communicator, i will make him one
nothing is impossible, where there ia a will there is a way
I will strive to understand him,
What hurts him, what he likes, it will be a brand new experience for me. I want him happy, always longing to come back home when he is away. Am ready for any battle that i will face as i work on my goal. I will win. We too can make a great family, work to have a beautiful marriage.
I will not let obstacles deter me or discourage me. the last  thing i want to do is give up. I know i will reap great fruits after all you reap what you reap.
This time,
Am gonna do things differently.